So Much More than Breakfast

It's been a long time since I posted. Life gets that way I guess.....

Tomorrow I will be going to breakfast with a friend of mine who is dying. She has cancer and she will lose this battle. We talked about her decision to stop chemotherapy. She wanted to keep fighting to be here for her children, but the chemotherapy is just too hard on her. She sleeps for days at a time after treatments. I think she wants to live the life that she has left doing what she wants and being awake instead of being hooked up to a machine and sleeping all the time. I can't blame her....even if it means she will leave this place sooner. I know it is selfish of me to want her to keep fighting.

I am never sure what to talk to her about. I think that always talking about the fact that she is dying gets old, but I don't want to pradle on about my mundane life.

One thing this experience has brought into clear focus for me is that life is so very precious. I thank God everyday for what he has given me.

My heart aches for her daughters who are too young to totally grasp what is all happening. I don't think many 7 and 8 year olds could. It make me angry that they will live so much of their lives without her. It just doesn't seem fair.

For any one out there still checking in to see if I post, I will try to do so more often. I find writing about this experience in my life a good outlet for me.

Till next time......