I was okay until...

My baby had his second birthday party yesterday. It went well--tons of food, family, friends, gifts, etc. Everyone was generous and seemed to have a good time. I figured I would spend the entire day crying being emotional and pregnant. I suprised myself by fending off the over emotional side until my husband and I knelt beside him to sing happy birthday to him.

My eyes started welling up and face started flushing. I quickly swallowed the knot in my throat to finish the song. My little boy...two years...ALREADY?!?

I always thought it was just a mama's cliche to say they grow up so fast. But there I was...marking the two year anniversary of the day my life changed forever. Really??? It seems like he was just born!

How is it possible that this time flies by so fast when I see him everyday?

I think part of the reason is this: I find myself saying "oh that happened when Nate was 10 months old" or something of the sort. I don't say "oh that happened 8 months after my birthday". His impact on my life has been so significant that the start of his life has become the new time marker for events in my life. And it was so seamless...

The other thing I realize about his birthday is that it marks a time period in my life when I have learned so much about myself, my marriage, and my family. I have grown so much in two years. I remember how much God has blessed me and about the future blessing to come in December with my second son. God has choosen me to raise these precious babies...what a gift He gave to me!